#anxiety, #depression, mental health, wellness

My Soulmates…….

It’s taken me a very long time to write this. You are about to read why. These people are not just regular people. Soulmates come into your life for a reason………

We all had that group of friends growing up. The one’s we hung out with after school going for rides on our bikes and drinking slushie’s from the Becker’s down the street. Doing what us kids would do. You grow up together for those couple years and most would think that its just part of growing up that once you were older you would just grow apart from that group of friends someday.

Well not me!! I have been honored and privileged to have grown up into adulthood with some of those friends. Some amazing women who have been by my side more than most of my blood family. These people were put into my life for a reason. It’s like they were hand picked for me and only me. They know me most times better than I know myself. We can all be in the same room together and literally have a conversation with just our eyes and we know exactly what the other’s are thinking. Like I’m talking me and these girls have lived not just one past life together but hundreds. We are that close. They have been there through all the bad break ups I’ve had. They have held my hair while I puked all over, then cleaned it up! I mean… seriously, these girls do things for me I would probably either never do for them or have a really hard time doing it🤣 They have held my hand during my up’s and held my head in their laps while I cry about all my downs. They helped raise my girls probably more than I was able to most times. They helped me through addictions, depression, death, planned and not so planned pregnancies, fights with other friends, lying (which I did an awful lot of if you ask them but they don’t have a fancy blog so 😜) and all my reckless behavior. They were there for the 2 am bottle feedings. They put roofs over my head when I had to leave all those toxic relationships they warned me about. They fed me and my kids when I was unable to. Mostly because I was too lazy to figure out my shit on my own! Even through that, they were there. Right by my side! They have lent me money, even though some days they knew I couldn’t or wouldn’t pay them back. They have always treated me like an equal even when I wasn’t.

Having them in my life has molded me into the person I am today. Having their love gives me strength, especially during this rough time in my life right now. I know that I can rely on them to answer crying calls from me at 4 am when I cant express why I feel so down. They will listen to me cry and help bring me back from the dark places I go. Having them has literally saved my life. I have wanted to write about all the great things we have done together or all the great moments we have shared but lately what I’ve been clinging to is those moments I felt them change me. Those moments I have needed them the most. The moments they have been there for me. I have known these women for 28 years. I have grown up my whole life with them by my side. We have gone through so much and lately I have been so broken I seem to forget sometimes how much I need their strength.

The word soulmate to me means a soul that matches your’s and will always be with you. No matter what life you have. Some people never get to meet their soulmate. They never get to experience that love. I have been blessed with 2 souls! That to me means I am meant to do much bigger things in this life to be carried through by these 2 souls. I know they will support anything I ever do, even if they know it will be a disaster.

I am not saying that these last 28 years have been all magical with rainbows and lollipops either. We have definitely had our ups and downs. We each have our own way of dealing with things but eventually no matter what in the end we always find our way through. Hence why they are my soulmates 🤣

The point I am trying to make is that I am a very blessed person to have these ladies in my life. I wouldn’t be who I am today without them. They are my sisters. They share my heart. You will meet new people all the time and they will have some impact in your life some way or another for some reason, but these women, they are special in more ways. This journey I am on is not something that’s easy to predict. I am also not entirely sure if they understand what I am even going through. I have made so many changes in my life lately that I find I’m trying harder not to need them so much. I want to prove to them I can make these changes and continue on my mental health journey. They have always taught me I can do whatever I want. No matter how small I think it may be.

All these steps I’ve been taking, all these new people I have met or new things I’ve been trying have all been inspired by their love. I cant thank them enough for loving me and being my soulmates. They are both probably going to say that I’m being too emotional but sometimes people need to hear how much someone loves them just as much as they love you. So to Ashil and Vanessa, my sisters, my soulmates, I love you. I am so blessed to have lived my life with you guys and I know in my heart no matter what life we live we will always find each other❤

Does anyone else have soulmates like this in their life?

16 thoughts on “My Soulmates…….”

  1. It’s not the quantity of friends but the quality.
    You are fortunate to have them and being able to lean on them when needed and visa versa.
    I still have a childhood friend which is very close to me and my sister and sister in laws.
    I don’t need a lot of friends , I know which one are close and we can depend on each other no matter what .
    Continue on your upward swing .
    By the way , your writing is excellent .
    Love you
    Mary 💕

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  2. I Love the ” Soul Sisters ” story Jenn.
    Love your writings … the more you write the easier it gets sort like meditation when your in that flow everything is possible.

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  3. Nice post on friendship.True friends are like a ventilatory system which makes you feel relaxed and calm when you talk to them,laugh to them.It the one of way to get distressed in this materialistic world. Thanks for following me 💐💐💐

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  4. What a lovely story Jenn and how very fortunate you are, I’m quite jealous. Unfortunately, we moved around a lot when I was younger and changed schools often, which meant that I never had the opportunity to meet such long-term friends.

    I still keep in touch with two school friends and when we meet up it’s like we’ve never been apart, but there’s so much I haven’t told them. Although I know I could, we never seem to have time as we only manage to see each other every few years, due to distance.

    I do have one good friend of thirty years plus who I met when I had my children and we know each other so well. Unfortunately, it’s me that’s had to be her rock! She is an alcoholic but still won’t admit it. Only last week, after not seeing each other for over a year because of her drinking, she had to be rescued from the toilets in a bar and then needed an ambulance after she fell over in the street.

    I’m looking forward to finding out a bit more about you and your journey Jenn and in the meantime, I wish you well. Caz

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing with me. I am very fortunate that I was able to grow up with my friends that’s sure. Before I met these particular people I also moved around a lot. That’s the hard part. When you don’t stay in one spot long it’s impossible, especially back in those days, to stay in touch. I am glad you are the kind of friend that is there for your friend even through the rough patches. The best thing you can do is just be there. I hope things do get better for them. I am so thankful you are wiling to join me on my wellness journey. I love to share with people. You never know who you can help along the way. I look forward to hearing from you again! I hope you are well.

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      1. Of course, we didn’t have the internet then – my kids laugh at that and asked if we used carrier pigeons lol.

        Yes, I’ll always be there for her, she’s lost most everyone else.

        I really appreciate the blogging community too, there’s no judgement in here and I find that everyone’s really supportive 🙂 Yes, of course, keep in touch – Caz

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  5. Omg I totally agree with the idea of having friends as soulmates, I also wrote a piece on soulmates in case you wanna check it out 💞

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