So to anyone that actually knows me, you know that I am not really a person who can do things on their own without help all the time, For example, going grocery shopping alone is my worst nightmare🤣. I usually drag Steve or Hope with me so I don’t have to face people alone but lately because of all the work I have been doing with my medication and life changes I am feeling more like I can do things on my own. I am doing things these days I would never have imagined I would be doing. To some people these things will be small things but to me they are leaps and bounds to my success lately. My confidence level has been growing insanely fast!
I have learned along my journey that its always great to have someone encouraging you and telling you that you can do things when you say you can’t. For example, we have been out at our trailer in Port Bruce and we met some fantastic people but one person in particular has given me so much confidence lately. She will remain unidentified as a courtesy to her but for this blog’s purpose ill refer to her as “Amy”. Amy is very similar to me. We are both funny, bright, beautiful women but for some reason Amy has way more courage. For my benefit shes a great teacher. She has taught me that I can be whoever I want to be! I can wear shorts and a tank top and not care what other people think of me. This time last year was super hard for me in that sense. I was body shaming myself and having panic attacks in the change room of the bathing suit store 😂 Amy’s husband also taught me how to cut wood with an ax! Amy asked me one day if I could cut wood and I said no so naturally it was time for me to get up and learn! Which I did! And if anyone needs video proof its available!😂 We have this dock for our boat and its basically a death trap. A year ago I would have said ” hell no, not my thang….” but guess what? Amy told me I could walk down that dock with no help, no problem. Therefore I walked down it like I was the newest plus size model on the lake Erie scene! 🤣 I showed Amy one day this hair style I liked on pinterest, of course, and I said “I wish I had the courage to cut my hair short, everyone always says I look bigger with shorter hair” but guess what, Amy said” who cares what anyone else thinks, you want short hair, you cut it! It’s just hair!” So I am now rocking an awesome short beach wavy hairdo and I am in love with it!
My point with this is that sometimes meeting new people helps bring out the best in you. I love my friends and family and get tons of support from all of them but sometimes it takes that one person or that one intention to bring out things in you that you never thought you were capable of. I am very thankful for meeting “Amy”. I am on this journey and having her here with me has really helped encourage a whole new me! I am going to continue with this feeling. There are some great things coming from all this learning of who I truly am and who I want to be.
My shell is a tough shell but I am breaking through more and more each day.
Wouldn’t it be great if someday I was someones “Amy”!!!!