So here’s how the story goes…
This year was a disaster. Covid 19 happened. The world shut down. Life as we know it was standing still or changing or whatever its actually doing. I’m on medical leave from work, Steve is off due to the pandemic and just before this shitty year happened we dropped a bunch of money into a trailer and a seasonal site. All of a sudden our life changed. Like overnight…. We then realized as fate had made it happen we were able take advantage of this situation by isolating at our trailer until this is all over.
We arrived in late May. I started a healing journey as did my family. We began our tiny home living off without a hitch! Who knew my family could get along this well. We can’t get along living in a 3 bedroom townhouse yet here we are peaceful and kind to each other in this trailer. What is making this happen?
Well I think I have figured it out. Its the fresh air. It’s the disconnection from the technological world. It’s the feeling you get waking up everyday without the daily struggle of 2 working parents who are never home enough to know who their kids are. Its the release of the constant pressure of work stresses and money issues. It’s the clarity that the swaying willow trees and the singing birds gives you every morning. Its the disconnect from this crazy world we live in. Out here I can breath. Out here I can hear my thoughts. I can feel my heart in those willow trees. I can here my soul in the singing birds.
Being able to heal and reset myself out here has been a blessing. I can’t express to you how it makes me feel. Knowing I can take this journey here, in this blissful place, is not only healing me faster but is taking me places I never thought I would go. My mind isn’t racing all day. I am able to stop and think. I am able to write and be free.
My life took me in this direction for a reason. I strongly believe that this is exactly where I was meant to be.
To those that know me ,they know I am a hard worker. I have always somehow, someway had a job and made money to support my family. I’ve had stress just like any one who works a 9-5 job and deals with teenage girls with big attitudes. Some days I’d rather be at work then at home. I was so stressed out I didn’t know which one to take it out on. At work I had to keep my composure but at home It was game on. The screaming and yelling and freaking out over the dumbest things. I can’t imagine going back to that. My family and I have come so far. From my times of reflecting I have realized if we go back to that it will ruin our family. So here’s my problem. How do I support my family and go all bohemian and rouge at the same time? Well I think the answer should be ” whatever I want to do!” As long as my family is happy and healthy whatever I decide will work. I have some idea’s I will share with you all in the near future but let’s just say for now I am in the works for some HUGE changes. Some of you may agree and some of you may judge me but at the end of the day I hope you will join me on this epic life and family journey.
I’m swinging for the curve ball until I nail it out of the park!!